I suppose that taking a final requires getting out of bed, huh? Sigh.

Twenty page analysis paper: COMPLETE. Go me.

Journalism Final: ...

Let's not discuss what that's going to be like at 9 AM tomorrow morning. I'm going to go through my notes, but the questions will be general theme type essays, with the readings (case studies) to back them up. I... um, think I can pull it off. I don't expect to get below a C. I also don't expect to get much above a B-. However, I have a B+ on everything else in that class, and decided to concetrate on the paper instead. I think it'll be okay. I hope.

Oy. Stupid nine AM final.

I get up for my very last day of class, ever, and feel horribly horribly ill. I'd skip it but, you know, last class ever. Also I have work directly afterwards so it wouldn't make that much of a difference. (Then get to be on a bus until, like, 2 AM. Goody.)

Ught.

Pst, fandom people: The Blush Manifesto is up.

You know, I become more compulsive about updating when I don't have a computer. Odd, that.

Anyway.

I'm still sick, but not nearly as sick; in fact, I made it to class and work today, and will be heading off to the other class in six minutes.

Things that were stressing me out that I took care of:
( stress )
( Did I mention that my computer DIED? )

In much better news, I read a fairly awesome book yesterday. (Almost Like Being In Love by Steve Kluger.) It's the first book since Stephen Fry's Revenge (sophomore year) that I've read in one day. Leah recommended it to me, and after much prodding on her part I finally picked it up, and it was fabulous. Very quick and easy to read, fairly uniquely formattedc, and one of the characters is an obsessive compulsive geek who grows up to be a history professor who explains the Revolution to his class in terms of baseball metaphors and wants to write a book about how Alexander Hamilton inadvertantly invented sports. Or something like that. Not to mention the fact that it made the slash fangirl in me swoon with delight. So, yes. Good book; very enjoyable, light read. Highly recommended.

And now I'm four minutes late to class, but not really, because classes don't start until ten after. Yay Brandeis time!

Well, three weeks into the semester, and I finally know what classes I'm taking. Which is quite a relief now, though around 2:30 I was rather, shall we say, extraordinarily panicked.

First off, registration ends tomorrow, and basically you're SOL if you don't have classes by then. And I needed four classes to complete my degree, which made it pretty important. I had two that I found easily; the plan was a third class plus an internship.

I'm not going to cover the internship woes, bitterness, and self loathing again. Yeah. Let us just say that did not pan out.

( Scheduling, and the many ways in which I am a moron. Oh, and I still hate snow. )

( Now, I finally have four classes. )

Well, I'm glad that's all settled.

I can't wait to graduate.

So, I went to Hiatt; David the career guidance guy doesn't seem to think I'm totally unemployable. Just, you know, probably unemployable. Which is super fun. (Basically, "If you apply to enough totally unrelated, boring, entry level jobs in industries you don't care about, you can probably get one of them. Maybe.")

That's not the current "aaaaarg", though. The annoyance I have at the moment is that I went to one of my classes for the first time and... didn't like it. I mean, I'd have liked it if it was any other semester, but I already have two classes that I do like and that will require a fair amount of reading (and for various reasons I probably can't weasel my way out of it and pretend very often). And since the reading list for the class didn't interest me, but it's both reading and writing heavy... I don't want to take it. But, in all of the possible various areas I'm interested in, in that same time slot (in order to keep from screwing up my work schedule), the only vaguely interesting looking class?

Jerry. Cohen.

Here's the thing. I really liked my first JC class (Intro to Amst); it's the reason I decided to become an American Studies major. And my second one I didn't like as much, but didn't mind that much, either. (Conspiracy Theories.) But the third one, which by all rights should have been awesome (Violence in American Culture) I hated, and I left is swearing I'd never take another JC class, that he was frustrating and annoying and just grrrr!! But on the other hand, being a JC class (but without having been there) I can be pretty sure that the requirements are two papers and a final exam, that I can blow off most of the reading, and not worry too much about the class and still get a fairly easy B+.

Maybe that sounds horrible, but damn it. I'm a second semester senior, I'll be doing two classes I actually care about and an independent study (probably), and trying to get a job for after graduation. I'd like to take at least one really easy class. Is that wrong?

So do I take it? Or keep searching? *sigh*

Soooo our grades are supposed to be up, right? Three of my four (plus gym) are, and they're pretty darned good, too.

The fourth grade (adolescent lit), oddly, says it's been graded and I earned my four credits for the class. So clearly I passed it, and judging by my GPA did quite well. But it doesn't show me the grade.

Um?

Paper done. Not as in-depth as I would have liked, but I did far more research and prep than I usually do... A very odd format specific to the class, which I'm not sure I like, but the strict format actually made it easier.

One paper down; one more (much longer) paper and four finals to go. But hey, my last class with Professor Asshat was today, and my last Econ class is tomorrow.

As is IHOP. Mmmmm. IHOP.

Well, I'm between half and 2/3 done with my first final paper. I had wanted to finish it tonight, but am not too upset that I didn't get it done because the other paper I thought was due Friday turns out to be due a week from today. So that's a little less stressful.

Of course, there's stress anyway, because yeah. Tech week. But the show is shaping up, so that's good.

Also, finals in all four classes this semester. Blah.

Okay, too tired to type an entry now.

It's disgusting out and I desperately want to skip class. But I can't skip Health Care (for all the good attending it does me) and it's in the same room as my Violence class, so I can't skip that very effectively either. Failing in skipping, I'd like to bring my computer with me; but it's raining out, I'm a klutz, and there's just too much potential for disaster. Also, I know me, and if I bring my computer I won't pay any attention. Which is only marginally less attention than I usually pay, which is why there's no point in going anyway...

But I will, because my grades seriously suck this semester worse than the ever have before (ever encompassing college, high school [including calc, discounting physics], middle or elementary school. Seriously) so I should at least put in a token effort.

I hate everything, sometimes.

It's amazing the extent to which I don't want to go to classes today. I'm tired, I've got a paper to write and an exam to finish studying for tonight, and once I leave my room at 10:30 won't be back until midnight at the earliest.

But I'm not doing well enough in health care to justify skipping, and if I go to that there's no point in skipping JC from 12-1:30 because I work at 2 and there's not enough time to come home and nap.

On the upside, the reason I won't be home until 12 is because I'm seeing David Bowie. But still, man, I'm sleepy and feel gross.

Wow, Seasonal Affectation Disorder rocks when it's nice out. Blue sky and sunshine!

I realized something a little bit shocking in my lit class today, and did something vaguely terrifying. "Lit" in this case is "pop culture", so even though the professor is an asshat when it comes to dealing with students, I really enjoy his lectures. (Also, I rocked the midterm.)

( The Beatles, *N Sync, and Blur )

Huh. Academically, I'm doing fairly poorly this semester... No idea how I'm doing in my Jerry Cohen class, but not too worried; and doing surprisingly well (far better than expected) in Prof. Asshat's. But I'm seriously having issues in Econ and didn't do as well as I thought on Health Care, either... I went in to it thinking I'd fail and came out thinking maybe I'd pulled off a B...

Yeah, didn't happen.

Gaaaaah. I'm not really upset, just sort of... irritated with myself.

But in other news, tonight was superfun, and a giant happy birthday to Matt.

And I'm done. Could have been worse. Certainly wasn't pleasant. The end.

Wow, it's amazing how much I don't want to do my econ now. All I want to do is sleep. For a million hours. But I can't because I have work to do, even though I JUST GOT HOME and haven't had time to do anything ALL DAY.

I'm full of hate and want the world to disappear. Hopefully will be back to normal as of tomorrow afternoon.

This is a Tuesday, huh? I have a discussion section at 11 on Tuesdays... Guess what I entirely forgot about!

Urg, I'm tired and want to skip class to sleep but can't really justify it. Alas.

Event number one: did not do nearly as badly on midterm as I expected. The goddamn HMO questions definitely fucked me up and will cost me points, but on the other hand, half of it was long-form essays and, well, I rock at those. And I think I got at least half credit on all the short answers, so... Here's hoping.

Event number two: I'm going to be able to get housing next year. I'm not going into detail here because housing is scary and I don't want to jinx it, but I will say my lotto number is significantly better than it was last year, and way WAY better than the year before that.

YAY for not living in a cardboard box on Chapels Field!

I'm in a great mood and have been for days, but I'm also getting sick. I know this because Vickie is just getting over being sick and Leah is currently sick, and I'm inexplicably exhausted. The last two days I've slept in--yesterday my classes were canceled because there was no power in that quad (w00t) so I slept until 12:30 instead of 10:30, and today I forgot to reset my alarm for 10:30 and, well, woke up a bit after noon. My first class started at 12 and is a 20 minute hike away; I probably wouldn't have bothered except I needed to turn in the homework (and managed to make it to almost a third of the class.)

Prof. Asshat is behaving less like an asshat this semester. I'm in no way basing this off of getting a higher grade on the first paper than I expected. Really. But come on; he's obsessed with Outkast (walked in to class Monday singing Heya, and today we were discussing the evolution of rock music and he used Outkast as an example of modern day genre mixing that brings fringe into the main stream) and in the past two classes we've both argued the merits of Brian Wilson and debated the phrase comic book vs. graphic novel. (No, MST3K did not come up.) And unlike when he made fun of me for referencing Star Trek, he was... almost nice. Or at least, not an asshat. How odd.

My resume is done; I've got the rough draft of my cover letter done and am taking it to Hiatt Friday. Right after I finish a midterm I am absolutely not prepared for, and should be studying for now; but like I was starting to say a million years ago (or three paragraphs, whatever) I'm exhausted despite having had more than enough sleep, which means I'm getting sick, which means fuck it, I'll study tomorrow.

So instead of studying, I think I'll go to bed. Maybe I'll actually make it to Econ on time tomorrow.

To do today:

-class/work (12-3)
-grocery shopping (finally)
-finish resume/cover letter so I can go to Hiatt tomorrow
-homework (heh)

Anyone up for grabbing the BranVan to Victory with me this afternoon? I'm planning to go all alone, sniff. And having company would be cool.

I actually got to bed at a decent hour last night! Hooray!

I'm so tired.

But I got a B on my first paper for Professor Asshat. Not sure how that happened, because from what I can actually read of his notes (which isn't much) he didn't like my supporting evidence, or my writing; but he liked my critical leap. No one has yet been able to figure out what that means, but since it got me a B (rather than the expected C-) that's pretty cool.

Just finished my econ midterm.

I'll be happy if I get an 80.

And I'm exhausted.